SCARED~

Have you ever been scared?

I mean really scared. Not from a movie, not from someone saying BOO.

I mean really really scared.

I was today.

This past week was an overloaded heck of a week for me. I seriously have had about 10 hours of sleep in 6 days. I have been burning the candle at both ends (THERE IS NO MORE CANDLE I WAS TOLD TODAY) getting fevers to go away, running errands, working out, grocery shopping, planning, cleaning, organizing, preparing for trips, itemizing..you know, being a mom and wife...... the list is seriously endless....... and it finally caught up with me and I ended up in the emergency room all day today. I was seriously scared. I know I am not invincible.... I learned that the hard way 6 years ago... apparently I forgot and had to be told to slow the heck down by two Emergency Room Doctors.

It is kinda scary to think that I am lying on this little gurney and the only things that are racing through my head are: Is my life insurance policy ok? Will anyone know when to pay the tags on my wonderful excursion?.. and Tommy better not sell it.. ... Jax has a book report and project due Friday, How will he get that done? Brinkley has art class... who will bring her home? Tommy .. I don't think he is in the mood to do any wife shopping so who will take care of that boy? and Pudgie has to start his speech stuff sometime soon. Who is going to coordinate all of this? and how in the world did I end up here? (Although Gilbert Mercy is an awesome hospital.)

Luckily for me, everything was fine. I am suffering from exhaustion and the possibility of a virus trying to settle in my chest walls. I guess that means I have a good immune system that is fighting it off..... So for this week I have been told:

NO GYM... GREAT.... I have no idea what to do with myself now...
RELAX.... RIGHT I have four children to care for. Yes Tommy, you are included in that mix.....
SLEEP...hmmm... I wonder what that is?
SLOW DOWN...... I have already started to go stir crazy.


I swear, God seriously picks some scary ways to slow me down and take a breath. (Seriously Scary and EXPENSIVE!)


I think I am gonna try YOGA....

Shadows~

When Tommy and I met at the Police Department I was the new blonde rookie and he was the baby on his squad that had like 250 years of police experience between them all. He had been there for a few years already. I always looked up to Tommy but never told him that. (most likely because I fell in love with him the first time I saw him.. I was seriously a bumbling idiot around him) I knew the boy loved traffic so I tried to emulate him as much as possible even though it was rare we ever worked together in my first year or so on the force. It took all of 16 months before I started dating Tommy and by then, we both had established some pretty amazing reputations.

When we got married there were bets placed against us and always the whispers but a few things always remained solid... our reputations and work ethics. Neither of us ever outshined the other. Our work styles always complimented the others.

When Tommy and I went through motor school together, we set the bar extremely high for couples within the department. A seriously high bar. We did what no one else had done and to make it even more amazing, I was the first girl to do it. From October 12, 2000 (Tommy's 30th birthday) on, Tommy lost his identity at work. It has always haunted me. Tommy instantly became....... "De Anna Jensen's husband.... you know "their" female motor." He lived in my shadow for a long time. He rode that motor better than me and yet he was always put on the back burner... newspapers and t.v. stations paid the attention to me and always put him in my shadow as, "my husband and riding partner," never giving him the credit he so readily deserved. He never once complained... ever.

I am sure that it was not easy. It still isn't. Heck, this man married me and I am not an easy person to be married to let alone be eye to eye and neck and neck in a career with. After my wreck, it still took a while for people to stop calling Tommy, "De Anna's husband." Every once in a while he gets kidded and even I will say... "don't you forget whose boy you are!" It is a running joke with us.

Tommy finally has gotten his chance to shine. There are no more shadows! I am here to tell you, he is as bright as the sun nowadays. In September he was promoted and gave up his motorcycle. That was the last thing that connected him to my shadow and I was very thankful to watch that thing go..for now. As Cmdr. Haenel said to everyone today, riding that motor is the best place in the department... and I know one day you will head back to it Tommy!!

For now,
Today is the day that the city did Tommy's formal promotion ceremony with all the dignitaries present. I could not have been more proud of his accomplishments. In the past 7 months Tommy has changed peoples careers in major ways and started putting all of his experience into play with all the men and women who now work for him.

I surprised Tommy by having all of our family at the ceremony. I even took Jax and Brinkley out of school for the day. I know how proud they are of him. They saw the countless hours he put into studying and now understand how that hard work has paid off. Today I wanted them to see it first hand. Jax was amazed to see all the Chiefs and Commanders and asked so many questions about how he can become a Sergeant or a Chief one day. (Nothing like skipping the ranks kiddo...way to aim high!)

Today was Tommy's day to shine. A day that has been a long time coming for him. I loved sitting back and being in his shadow. It is a place I have never been in my life and it was pretty cool! I think I could handle this place every once in a while!

Thank you Tommy for giving me the honor of pinning on your Sergeant's badge.... You have no idea how proud of you I am...How proud all of us are! I swore to myself I was not going to cry today... at least you were kind enough to join me in the tears!

Thank you Grammie Diane, Grampie Frank, Grammie and Grampie Jensen and our wonderful kids for being there to support Tommy today. He won't say it out loud to anyone but me, but it meant the world that you were there to stand and watch him receive his badge!

P.S. For those that don't know... this has been a hideous week of one disaster after another in our house. Jax was sick, Pudgie was really really sick, Binky had her weekly issues.. everyone was cranky and my house looks like a two year old went wild inside it......oh wait, he did and so did an 8 and 6 year old! To top it all off, I go and get the absolute worst haircut of my entire life the day before this ceremoy. I had just told my good friend you never have your hair done before a function (she left for a cruise this morning and had her hair done yesterday as well.) Luckily, I have a "whatever personality" when it comes to my hair. I wrapped it up in a belt and spiked it as much as possible. WHATEVER! I will be wearing my baseball hat even more than normal for a while! Trish, thank you for the emergency slip to go under my dress. You would think with all the preparation I had made for this day I would not be such a jumble! You saved me!

I am so glad we have the next 4 days to catch our breath and the kids can get healthy and help clean and my hair can grow!

Another sick day~

Poor Pudgie. I knew something was wrong with him when I put him to bed last night. I even called Tommy to tell him something was wrong with the way he was breathing. He stood in my room at 11:45 PM whimpering and burning up. What can you do but pull 'em into bed with you and love them to death. He woke up with a fever of 102.... UUUGGGH!

We spent the entire day on the couch or laying in Pudgie's bed ... or Pudgie laid on me or had me carry him everywhere. Not the most comfortable for me but this poor baby is just a miserable mess! I hate when 2 year olds get sick. Getting Pudgie to take Tylenol is like getting me to eat asparagus. It is just not a pretty sight.

GROSS TALENT~

That's our Pudgie!

The Concert.....

Second Graders Extraordinaire!!!

Sick Day

Jax has his 2nd grade music concert tonight. Of course, today, he has a sore throat and cough. I knew he was not faking this morning when he cried as I told him that he would not be able to goto the concert tonight if he stayed home from school. I was just testing him anyway..... I am sure it is allergies since there is no fever.

We spent the day hanging out together except for when I ran to the store with Pudgie man. Jaxi is the one I can trust to lay on the couch and do nothing. (Don't panic, Daddy was home).

After I put the little man down for his nap, we just hung out and watched a movie that is probably not the most suitable for an 8 year old, but we both loved it and I love explaining how important school is if you want to be like daddy or if you want to repel off the helicopter like the FBI agent in the movie we were watching. Jax loves school so even if there was a little bit of faking going on today... I am good with that.....because he is such a good boy!

Oh man...

As I was looking at Trish & Shane's blog today...this caught my eye. Oh man, I just gained 10 pounds looking at it.. I need to goto the gym again today. And maybe I should stop blog hopping. Thanks Trish!

Friends

I love how friendships can happen from the strangest places. Hallie, Jax, and Binky met 5 years ago in the kidz club at our gym. Of course, soon after, I met Leslie (Hallie's mom) and the friendships have just grown from there. We have seen new houses, birth, death, new animals, and so much more since we met! We may only get to see each other three times a year now, but we make a day of it and have a blast! Thanks for the fun over Spring Break!

OF COURSE......

My mission has begun. I have started scouring the internet to find new and exciting ways to get Jax and Brinkley to stop helping Pudgie do everything... and a way for me to not give in so easily to him and make him work for the things he wants. It is going to be hard but that was one of the main suggestions today to get Pudgie to talk on his own rather than point and grunt..... either that or somehow get rid of his older siblings that do everything upon everything for him....... I don't forsee that happening.

We took Pudgie to an audiologist/speech therapy office today. It was solely for an evaluation. Immediately I didn't think we fit in. Something just seemed off with what I was thinking was "wrong" with Pudgie and and all the little ones that were in the office getting therapy.

After an hour long play session of Pudgie telling the evaluator "no" to everything, I was nearing tears of frustration, Tommy was ready to explode and Pudgie was tired of being told he could not play with the balls that the woman had given him. When all was said and done we were told Pudgie's comprehension is completely normal he is just having difficult expressing emotions verbally. Oh fricken heck, for $270.00 an hour I could have told you that................. Then.......

Pudgie turns the ball~ coaster~ air~ blowing~ thing~ of~ toy over and starts reading the letters in phonogram sounds. The woman looked up at Tommy and I and immediately asked us what he was doing. I had told her over and over, as did Tommy, that he reads the letters he sees as phonograms rather than saying words... I guess she was not listening the 40 times I tried to tell her this. (The more that I think about it, the more I don't believe it myself half the time) Sure as can be, that is what he started doing and this woman was speechless.

She is recommending speech therapy for him, to push him along a little. OF COURSE SHE IS!

It will take an unknown number of sessions to help him along. OF COURSE IT WILL!

It is $270.00 an hour. Insurance may not pay for it but they take credit cards.... OF COURSE THEY DO!

We ended the session on one note that made me feel better...

Einstein was 3 years old before he uttered a word.

Who's been sleepin in my bed?

With new schedules in place in our house, we are taking full advantage of weekend gym time. I used to take Sunday's off but not anymore. This Sunday was no different.. but oh so different for me.

I finally get to sleep in, if sleeping until 7 a.m. is really considered sleeping in, on both Saturday and Sunday. I made it clear that no one in the house has a choice in this matter and unless you have a limb dangling by one small piece of tendon, I am not concerned about any blood loss,..... you best just wait it out. Tommy has been included in this threat. It seems to be working.... sort of.

This last Sunday, I heard Pudgie, at the top of his little lungs screaming..

MOMMA?

MOM MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

It was like nails on a chalkboard. Instantly, it was gone. SILENCE. When I looked at the clock it said 7:10. I decided to start the shower to get ready to hit the gym since we had birthday parties to go to!

Just as I opened the door to the shower, out of no where... POOF... my breakfast was served. It was meant for "in bed" but Pudgie ruined that... I was ordered back into bed where I got to eat my most favorite sourdough toast, cherry yogurt and 6 egg whites! I was set for legs and shoulders day....

I am still wondering who that masked man was that made me breakfast because Tommy does not cook.

Who has been sleepin in my bed on the weekends???????

Slumber Party

Pudgie was all over the bed!

Buddies!Early morning.. Jax now understands why Mommy doesn't like to share her pillow

Well, for the first time, and I suppose, not the last, all three little ones slept in Jaxi's room last night. I doubt I will ever get Pudgie back in his own bed now. Oh wait...he hardly sleeps there anyways!!

VAGUE

TOMMY SAID I SEEMED VERY VAGUE IN MY LAST POST ABOUT THE GROCERIES I GAVE AWAY YESTERDAY. I DIDN'T THINK SO. MAYBE HE WANTED TO HEAR MORE. I DIDN'T REALLY THINK THERE WAS ANY MORE TO TELL. HE KEPT PRODDING ME.

DON'T GET ME WRONG, TOMMY WAS MORE THAN PROUD OF WHAT I DID. I JUST DIDN'T THINK THAT MUCH OF IT. HE WANTED TO KNOW PEOPLE'S REACTIONS AND WHAT THIS LITTLE GIRL SAID. WELL HONEY, HERE IT IS IN A NUTSHELL~

I THINK THE CHECKER WAS MORE SHOCKED AND DISMAYED THAN ANYONE. I DON'T KNOW THAT ANYONE ELSE GETTING GROCERIES NOTICED. THAT WAS NOT A REAL CONCERN OF MINE ANYWAY. I HAD BEEN TO FRY'S A TOTAL OF 7 TIMES ALREADY THIS WEEK SO THE CHECKER KNEW WHAT I WAS DOING AND HOW MUCH MONEY I WAS SAVING AND JUST HAD AN ASTONISHED LOOK ON HER FACE WHEN I HANDED OVER THE GROCERIES. MY CHECKER DID TELL ME IT WAS COOL THAT I HAD DONE THAT. I THOUGHT THAT WAS NICE.

AS FOR MY LITTLE MOTHER THAT WAS REALLY SPEECHLESS.. SHE DID THANK ME. I DIDN'T EVEN NEED THAT. IF I COULD HAVE, I PROBABLY WOULD HAVE TRIED TO GIVE HER THE GROCERIES WITHOUT HER KNOWING WHO I WAS. THAT WAS IMPOSSIBLE GIVEN THE LOCATION OF THE CHECKOUTS WE WERE IN. SHE WAS YOUNG AND SHY AND SEEMED A BIT EMBARRASSED THAT SHE NEEDED HELP. I FIGURED, HECK, WHO DOESN'T NEED HELP? I NEED IT A LOT BUT I NEVER ASK FOR IT. (NOTE TO SELF: ASKING FOR HELP IS OK!) IT WAS THE LOOK OF RELIEF ON HER FACE THAT SAID A THOUSAND WORDS THAT I WILL NEVER FORGET. I AM SURE EVERYONE HAS SEEN IT. NOTHING ELSE NEEDED TO BE SAID.

TO ME, IT WAS JUST ONE MOM LOOKING OUT FOR ANOTHER!

I Dare You..

When I was growing up, my parents always made us volunteer at Andre House. It is a house in downtown Phoenix that feeds the homeless. I was little so I got to pass out cookies at the end of the line. It never dawned on me that I was really doing anything that good. I just loved talking with all the people and seeing them smile. I never really understood they were really homeless and could not afford their meals.

On Christmas Eve, 1991, the guy I was dating went with me to do some last second Christmas shopping before dinner. I will never forget that as we drove past Mervyn's I noticed this older woman pushing a shopping cart. It started to sprinkle. I made him turn his truck around and I gave her all the money I had to finish my Christmas shopping. My boyfriend was livid at me. I didn't have enough money to finish my shopping now, and to be honest, I can't even remember who did not get their present that year. Obviously it did not matter. I broke up with my boyfriend right after Christmas for making fun of me for helping someone. I was always that kind of girl. Still am.

This past week I have been clipping coupons like a raging lunatic. SERIOUSLY. Each day I went, I had lists and all my coupons organized in envelopes and did not deviate from the lists. I was even prepared for any Pudgie tantrums... I took extra snacks for the little man and my shopping went off without a hitch.... until the checkout.

Today, when Pudige and I were getting ready to go through all my lists I was watching a younger little girl and her baby checking out their groceries. I knew she was young.. maybe 17. I am sure she was making a go of life on her own or maybe with a boyfriend and her little baby. I can't imagine how that would be.

I went through my first batch of food groceries. I was pretty pleased with my $10.11 bill for over $135.00 in groceries. Something about this little girl just kept me staring in her direction. There was barely enough food to feed one person for a day, let alone herself and her little one. They didn't seem homeless but possibly a pair that bounced between friends. Pudgie was trying to play ball with the girl.

When the girl finished checking out her groceries she was short a few dollars. If she had been buying alcohol or cigarettes I would not have given her a second thought. She was buying her baby her food and milk, bread and eggs. Essentials. Essentials that she could not afford. The clerk asked her what she needed to return. I could tell the girl was embarrassed and scared all at the same time. I handed the clerk the remaining amount this little girl needed and told her she did not need to return anything. You would have thought that I had just given this little girl a new car. She could not thank me enough. It felt so good to help this little girl with just a few dollars that were change at the bottom of my purse. Pudgie, of course had not idea what was going on, but was actually playing happily for once in the store.

Right then I decided that this little girl could have my first group of groceries. It was all food, well, one package of toilet paper, and who doesn't need that. They would both be able to eat everything that I had purchased and I am sure it was more food than she had purchased in the last two months combined. Who knows, maybe my instinct was off today, and this little girl was not who she appeared to be....she could be the nanny for all I know, but I don't think so.

Today I did something for someone else and it felt so good. My kids are not going to miss the mashed potatoes that I gave away and we certainly will survive without the other 4 bottles of bottles of grape juice and countless other items that were there in my order.

I am not sure how many people really read our blog, but for those that do, I DARE YOU to do something good for someone you don't know. It might just make your day! I really believe that for the cost of my groceries $10.11 and the extra $2.00 and change I gave to this little girl, one day, she will do the same for someone else when she can!

HOT little DATE

Pudgie and I made a go of Lifetime Fitness today. He has done well with Jax and Brinkley there but the one time I tried to take him by himself he did horribly. We are talking kicking and screaming - trying to climb over the barrier - to get the heck outta Dodge - horrible!


Today was better. Not the best, but I got an hour out of him. I knew it was gonna take a couple of times to adjust. It is rather daunting for a 2 year old, I guess.


Once we were outta the gym I stopped at Wal~Mart. When I finished, I decided to get lunch for each of us. Subway for me and a hot dog for Pudgie. Pudgie was yelling that he wanted to sit and eat at the tables. He would not take no for an answer, even though I had intended to take lunch home with us. So we sat. Just the two of us. Our time!


Pudgie is too small to actually sit comfortably in a dining chair, but he does it, and he thinks he is super cool. We started eating our lunch and had a wonderful little chat. He talked of phonograms..."ahh, oooooohhh, eh, eeeeee, then mama and daddy and eeeewwwwww ucky," as he watched the construction workers walk in all muddy from their job. We were lost in our own little conversation that lasted quite a while. Of course, only I knew what Pudgie was saying, not matter though, it was high priority talk!


That is when I noticed other people noticing us.


One older couple watched Pudgie intently. Pudgie decided he wanted to play ring around the rosey with the basket and the table. He only had on one of his Spongebob shoes. He paid no attention to anyone but me. I was the center of his little world right then and there. He giggled everytime he passed next to me and screamed "BOO." This lasted a good 10 minutes. I guess if I had stopped acting surprised everytime he got close he would have gotten bored sooner. The couple just kept smiling at my little man.


Another woman watched in clear disgust. I don't know if it was his missing shoe that clearly had her grimacing at us or if she was just having a miserable day.. whatever the case, Pudgie was oblivious to her as well. I just kept smiling at her. After all, I had the hottest lunch date in town today and who would not be smiling at that?


We continued to chit chat about all the important things in life... such as juice and the fans on the ceiling that were spinning. There is nothing funnier than watching a toddler try to follow spinning fans with his eyes. The missing light bulb that was "OOOH OUCHIE OUT" in one of the pendant lights was also a hot topic. Pudgie finally got down off his chair and climbed up into my lap and started in on my sandwich, which quickly became his. I never did get another bite. Which seems to always be the case during meals now! He switched seats three times while we ate. This really bothered our grimacing friend. Again, Pudgie was not concerned. After all, when you are 2, you should try the regular seats, the green bar stool and the red one while enjoying your dining experience.


We spent a good hour together at Subway today. Nothing fancy for us. Just some awesome Pudgie and Mommy time. Pudgie worked on his words and laughed and made other people laugh too. That always makes for a great day!

Jammin

Trish is teaching us to make homemade sourdough rolls, via her blog. It is a ten day process. I wanted to do it. I really wanted to. I thought I would have a hard time keeping up with the whole process, but I figured that now that it was in writing, and had pictures, I could do it at a later day since I did not have the ingredients. Then Trish opened up her pantry to me...I had no excuse now, so I was gonna do it.....then, I fell down the stairs while holding Pudgie and broke two toes at 6 a.m. LAST Monday morning. (I probably actually did some other things that are worse than broken toes but what's one more sore appendage on this body right?) The rolls were a no go at that time but Pudgie was all intact and he learned a new word that day! Not so good!


So, instead..... I decided to try making jam.


Ok, if I have not made it clear as crystal yet... Betty Crocker I am not! I guess it sounds like I would rather break my toes than bake. Probably......Seriously... my sister was the one who took the cooking classes when we were growing up.... I did gymnastics, took wood~shop and played softball all year round. I never had a desire to learn how to cook. NEVER... I can grill things and roast things over an open flame (marshmallows count people... work with me!) but I seriously do not have the patience to really sit down.. ok stand there, and "C O O K." (I fake my Christmas cookies...)


Now, with that being said, Shanen invited me to learn how to make strawberry jam with her this year. At least I hope she invited me and I didn't actually just invite myself to do it and then she felt obligated to really have me come over..... because I do that a lot around here.. ok, anyways...


I will first tell everyone involved that I had no idea what making jam involved. I envisioned boiling things and pressure cookers and some special type of thingy to suck the lids onto the jars. Things that everyone would know I do not have in my kitchen. I was seriously figuring I would have to run to Trish's house at the very last minute and beg to raid her house of all kinds of kitchen equipment I would not know how to use anyway. At least that way, I was gonna look cool! No matter what I needed, I was gonna learn this way of doing it because Shanen's jam is the best we have ever had.


When we moved into our house over Easter weekend in 2006, to welcome us to the neighborhood, Shanen, Josh, Ky, Kobi and Mr. 4 weeks old Kruzi gave us a jar of Shanen's homemade strawberry jam. It was awesome.... and I am usually just good~old~fashioned grape~jelly girl. Even Binky liked it and she hates strawberries. Trust me, I would not even attempt this if we did not love it...and when I like something... look out.


Last Wednesday night I rushed to get all my supplies that I needed for my jammin debut! Ok, a trip that should have taken 15... maybe 20 minutes, with drive time included, turned into me staring at the housewares section of Wal-Mart wondering what the heck I was doing. When it comes to cooking and all the gadgets that go along with the kitchen I just don't get it. I could not tell you the difference between blenders or beaters or types of pots and pans and when you get into gadgets that you plug in... if it is not a Geroge Foreman grill or a blender for protein shakes... it most likely is not going to be used in my kitchen. I may have it because it looks good, but honestly, I most likely don't know how to use it!


As I walked up and down the same three isles, the same man kept asking me if I was ok. Seven times he walked by me as I stood with a blank stare on my face wondering what most of these things actually did.


After walking past the containers I needed 10 times, I finally found just what Shanen had showed me. For being such a visual person... sometimes I just get lost in the moment of things. So I was all prepared.. except for the other thing she showed me that I still could not remember the name of. After another 10 minutes I remembered it was the pectin... and since I had been told it was right next to the containers I needed, I headed back to the housewares section again. (I have no idea how I got into the shoe section...)


So, initially, the plan was to make the jam together on Saturday or whenever we could fit it in. Well, I got antsy on Thursday morning and decided to try my hand at Strawberry jam all by my lonesome. I messed the first batch up! Go figure! I can not multi-task when it comes to cooking. Anything else I can do 50 things at once.. cooking...Not even close. I probably only had 1/2 the amount of required strawberries and way too much sugar. Pudgie drank an entire jar of the first batch. The kid loved it!


As things seem to happen around here, plans changed and I knew Shanen had conferences for church this weekend, so we didn't get a chance to make the jam together but she helped me make it via text messages! I even made sugar free jam and it was really good!


The kids love it and I have to admit, I am pretty proud of myself for stepping out of my comfort zone to try this Suzy Homemaker stuff out for myself!


And my little taste tester can not get enough of it!

BARGAIN MONDAY!

I love bargain Mondays. Or bargain Sunday's for that matter. I had Pudgie today so that is always a gamble for me on how much I can really get done. Today was good! I was armed with three organized lists of coupon only items and I was absolutely not going to deviate from my lists. Every item had a coupon and not a single item more would be bought...I hoped! Plus I was only taking $40.00 cash with me and I had already made out my totals so we only had a $10.00 pad in case something was sold out and or Pudgie threw a major fit and I had to stuff him with goodies not on the list!

Here is my break down:
15 packages of Keebler fudge cookies
10 Betty Crocker cookie mix pouches
10 cans of Hormel chili
8 bottles of Welchs light grape juice
6 boxes of Eggo frozen waffles (60 total)
4 packages of Dole cherry fruit cups (16 cups)
4 Knorr side dishes
3 Pillsbury pizza crust rolls
3 Betty Crocker AuGratin potatoes
2 wheat Buitoni Tortellini noodles
2 bags Cheetos

70 items total were bought making them cost approximately 42.67 cents each! (yes, that is a smoking deal especially for the Welchs grape juice .. even better than any dollar store I have ever been to!!)

My bill was $210.27 which was done in 3 transactions at Fry's

I PAID $29.87 TOTAL FOR EVERYTHING!!

SCORE!!!

(I look at it as the grape juice was normally $4.19. I paid for 7 bottles of juice and got everything else free!!!!! But that is just me!)

Side note

** For those that really know us, Tommy and I will not eat 90% of this food. It will go for snacks for his new squad and the kids. I can't beat it when summer is coming and I can freeze the cookies for movie days! And I can fake more christmas cookies next year!**