Fixing It

I think I need to start blogging again.  It made me laugh and cry and everything in between and I felt better when I blogged.  But first I have to get something out of my head to move forward. 

I never thought things people said about me really bothered me... until now.  I was compared to a mom that I have very little respect for.  And the comparison was not a good one.    While we are complete polar opposites in all aspects of life except for the fact that we are moms..... she was said to be a better mom than me.  And this is grinding on me.  To the point of making me physically sick and angry beyond words.  The comparisons between the two of us are devastatingly scary...  I am a firm believer in angry words and words said with alcohol are words that are spoken with truth..... and I know that these words rang true in someones opinion, and that is fine.... but now I can't stop thinking about how awful this makes me feel as a person.

I work hard to be a good mom.  My kids do come first.  Their grades reflect that.  Their lives reflect that.  They may not have gourmet meals or what some may consider the "BEST" of everything, but they HAVE me, and they KNOW I am always here for them 24 hours a day 7 days a week. (which they readily take advatage of all hours of the day and night!!!)

And maybe that is the problem.....
Maybe I am the one doing everything too much and everyone is taking way too much advantage of that. Maybe I am wrong.... 
Maybe I have a lot of work to do....
Maybe I could live off maybes and get absolutely no where......
So,  ahhhh there...  feeling better all ready!
I think I can start to catch up on this lost in space blog!!!!!