Shifting............

Ahhh some days I think that I get jealous of normal. Daddy's that come home at a normal time and have a normal schedule and ...well... a normal job. Although I don't know what normal is. A banker, a broker, a sales dude? I don't know. Just normal. My kids rarely see Daddy for more than 1 hour on Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday. Luckily that one hour is dinner and we are pretty strict about all 5 of us sitting down and tuning into us. Some days it doesn't work out so well and they get no time and don't even see each other. Now me, well I get to pack extra dinners and make extra dinners and breakfasts and I get to fly by the seat of my pants most days and.. well it suits me... except the past 2 months have been a little "edgy"

See.. we are in a process. The longest testing process in the history of processes know to man at SPD. Tomorrow it will come to an end. Good, bad or indifferent, it will end and life will go on and I will continue to be a single mom 4.5 days a week. Four and a half days straight of me, myself and I. I don't know any different so I can't even imagine what would happen if there really was a normal around here. I am not sure if my kids would know normal either.

Sometimes I talk to my friends that have the 24 on/48 off and just imagine how incredibly easy that would be. BAM... Done. But then you are on the ever changing shift of weeks and I like knowing what days are recovery days. Then there are the 48 on/96 off-ers. That would be easier than most, for me.

We are cramming a lot into the days lately. Adjusted hours and new schedules and, "stuff." Actually, we are working really hard to just get along until all is said and done. Some people are rather crabby... and by people, I don't mean me or the 3 munchkins!!! I totally expect that the serious stress will come to an end tomorrow night.......... and then we can relax. Relax and gear up for another schedule change and re-adjust our daily lives or just go back to what we know and love.

Either way... we are surviving and will continue to... and maybe, just maybe... someone will get the office and hopefully, a take home car, he so readily deserves!!!!

We love you Daddy. We know that you are the best one for the job and you wil do amazing tomorrow night. We are 110% behind you and know you will do your best and it will all work out for the best!!!

AND I AM POSITIVE YOU ARE GOING BACK TO YOUR NORMAL SELF TOMORROW.... OR I AM CALLING YOUR BOSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I LOVE YOU!