YOU WILL ALL LAUGH.. AND THAT IS OK... I GUESS... BUT TODAY, I AM JUST SAD. SAD LIKE~ MY EYES WERE WELLING UP WITH TEARS AND I COULD FEEL THE BURN IN MY CHEST WHILE MY CHEEKS FLUSHED. A FEW TIMES I JUST HAD TO WALK AWAY. I FELT LIKE I COULD FALL INTO A BIG HEAPING MUSH PUDDLE OF DEANNA AND SOB. LITERALLY SOB! I AM DEVASTATED. I HAVE BEEN LIVING IN DENIAL FOR A FEW WEEKS NOW!! ALAS, MY BABY IS NO LONGER A BABY!
WE BOUGHT PUDGIE A BIG BOY BED TODAY. AN ENTIRE BEDROOM SET, ACTUALLY! THANKFULLY IT WILL NOT BE DELIVERED UNTIL MARCH 4TH. I TRIED TO MAKE IT MARCH 4TH OF 2009. THE SALES LADY DIDN'T THINK I WAS FUNNY. I WAS ACTUALLY HOLDING BACK FROM SPEWING VOMIT. I WAS COMPLETELY SICK TO MY STOMACH AND I WAS RATHER SHOCKED AT THIS REACTION. IT NEVER HAPPENED WITH JAX OR BRINKLEY. WE SIMPLY TRANSITIONED AND IT WAS NEVER A BIG DEAL.
THIS TIME IT IS HUGE FOR SOME REASON. MAYBE IT IS BECAUSE PUDGIE IS MY LAST BABY. THERE ARE NOT MORE, "SURPRISE, WE ARE HAVING A BABY!" SENTENCES THAT WILL HAPPEN IN THIS HOUSE.
TOMMY MUST HAVE KNOWN I WAS FEELING LIKE THIS. HE PICKED OUT PUDGIES MATTRESS AND REALLY MADE THE FINAL DECISION ON THE ENTIRE BEDROOM SET. I WAS CONTENT LOOKING AT THE LINT ON THE FLOOR.... THE COBWEBS ON THE WALL... ANYTHING AT ALL BUT A BIG BOY BED.
FOR NOW THE CRIB WILL DO AND I WILL STILL BREATHE EASIER AS I KEEP HIM LITTLE A FEW WEEKS LONGER.
HAPPY BIG BOY BEDROOM PUDGIE!
WE BOUGHT PUDGIE A BIG BOY BED TODAY. AN ENTIRE BEDROOM SET, ACTUALLY! THANKFULLY IT WILL NOT BE DELIVERED UNTIL MARCH 4TH. I TRIED TO MAKE IT MARCH 4TH OF 2009. THE SALES LADY DIDN'T THINK I WAS FUNNY. I WAS ACTUALLY HOLDING BACK FROM SPEWING VOMIT. I WAS COMPLETELY SICK TO MY STOMACH AND I WAS RATHER SHOCKED AT THIS REACTION. IT NEVER HAPPENED WITH JAX OR BRINKLEY. WE SIMPLY TRANSITIONED AND IT WAS NEVER A BIG DEAL.
THIS TIME IT IS HUGE FOR SOME REASON. MAYBE IT IS BECAUSE PUDGIE IS MY LAST BABY. THERE ARE NOT MORE, "SURPRISE, WE ARE HAVING A BABY!" SENTENCES THAT WILL HAPPEN IN THIS HOUSE.
TOMMY MUST HAVE KNOWN I WAS FEELING LIKE THIS. HE PICKED OUT PUDGIES MATTRESS AND REALLY MADE THE FINAL DECISION ON THE ENTIRE BEDROOM SET. I WAS CONTENT LOOKING AT THE LINT ON THE FLOOR.... THE COBWEBS ON THE WALL... ANYTHING AT ALL BUT A BIG BOY BED.
FOR NOW THE CRIB WILL DO AND I WILL STILL BREATHE EASIER AS I KEEP HIM LITTLE A FEW WEEKS LONGER.
HAPPY BIG BOY BEDROOM PUDGIE!
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2 Lightbulb moments:
Lets see...knowing its your last baby, I wonder what that feels like?
When we were packing the storage pod, and decided to sell the two tricycles, and the two toddler beds...knowing that the girls would not fit in either by the time we got to our new house...
watching the mexicans load them up on the trucks..ARGH!! the pain, the pain...the lump in my throat, my weak knees, (and it really has nothing to do with the looming teenagers ahead, honestly)I broke out in a sweat as the truck drove away, as if our moving was making them grow up faster!
Everytime I pull there small clothes out of their closet, I am reminded of my own mortality. Every time they say something that only a 30 year old should say..I am amazed, and then suddenly mortified!!
Thank god they still carry their blue babies and suck their thumbs..
but I suppose I should deal with that soon...ya think?
NO NOT AT ALL. LET THEM BE LITTLE. IT JUST GOES SO FAST. PUDGIE WAS JUST 6 MONTHS OLD YESTERDAY WASN'T HE?.. AND THEN TONIGHT HE TACKLED HIS BIG SISTER AND PINNED HER LIKE SHE WAS A FEATHER. I AM JUST SAD. ALL OF THEM ARE GETTING SO BIG, BUT OH SO SMALL STILL. I MISS YOU BUD! YOU SHOULD HAVE SEEN ME. YOU WOULD HAVE LAUGHED. I THOUGHT I WAS A TOUGH WOMAN... NOT ONE BIT WHEN IT COMES TO THE BABIES GETTING BIG. SEEMS LIKE YOU WERE JUST HERE IN THE RECOVERY ROOM PAYING ATTENTION TO ME INSTEAD OF MY NEW PUDGIE AFTER SURGERY! DANG.... AND YOURS WERE JUST LITTLE BALLS IN CARRIERS AT MY RETIREMENT PARTY..WASN'T THAT YESTERDAY TOO? WELL.... WHAT CAN YA DO RIGHT? I VOTE FOR JUST LOCKING THEM IN THE CLOSET TO STOP TIME!!!!! TOMMY KNEW IT WAS BAD SO HE BOUGHT ME A NEW KITCHEN TABLE AND CHAIRS... FUNNY HUH? GOTTA LOVE THE DADDY THAT KNOWS WHEN MOMMY IS NEAR MELTDOWN MOMENT!
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