Today we start again. The "beginning." Even if our real beginning was way back in July. The first official game is today. We have been playing pre-season games. Violent, pre-season games. They are done and over and today starts anew! So it is time to rock.... Let's hope that this season gets off to a good start with the games that count!! Because starting the season this way...kinda sucks!!!
I think I need to start blogging again. It made me laugh and cry and everything in between and I felt better when I blogged. But first I have to get something out of my head to move forward.
I never thought things people said about me really bothered me... until now. I was compared to a mom that I have very little respect for. And the comparison was not a good one. While we are complete polar opposites in all aspects of life except for the fact that we are moms..... she was said to be a better mom than me. And this is grinding on me. To the point of making me physically sick and angry beyond words. The comparisons between the two of us are devastatingly scary... I am a firm believer in angry words and words said with alcohol are words that are spoken with truth..... and I know that these words rang true in someones opinion, and that is fine.... but now I can't stop thinking about how awful this makes me feel as a person.
I work hard to be a good mom. My kids do come first. Their grades reflect that. Their lives reflect that. They may not have gourmet meals or what some may consider the "BEST" of everything, but they HAVE me, and they KNOW I am always here for them 24 hours a day 7 days a week. (which they readily take advatage of all hours of the day and night!!!)
And maybe that is the problem.....
Maybe I am the one doing everything too much and everyone is taking way too much advantage of that. Maybe I am wrong....
Maybe I have a lot of work to do....
Maybe I could live off maybes and get absolutely no where......
So, ahhhh there... feeling better all ready!
I think I can start to catch up on this lost in space blog!!!!!
A few months back a friend of mine came to me and asked if she could come train with me instead of going to her gym for workouts. She knew from talking with me that I was doing Crossfit workouts and had decided that she really wanted to try it out. Something really clicked with us and we started training everyday. Soon after she started coming, I convinced my favorite walking buddy to come try a workout with me. I had been working her up to a Crossfit WOD for months, but she didn't know and I made her think that it was all her idea. We slowly started training together and people took notice of our posts on facebook. Soon, people started noticing the changes in our bodies and the questions really started coming in about what we were doing and when people started seeing the, "strange," group of people carrying balls over their heads around the block and running with weights... I was getting messages and all kinds of requests to please let me join your workout group. I never expected this type of response and since I don't see what other people do, but I was totally flattered and didn't know what to say.
Today, we have an amazing group of strong, confident women who are kicking tail and rocking CROSSFIT workouts every single day. Healthy meals and healthy minds are a top priority for everyone. We support each other through every single day. We talk life and love and kids and marriage and school and cars and shopping and vacation and weather. We have puked in front of each other and cried in front of each other and laid on the ground in front of each other in a heap of sore messed up puddle of sore muscle mess. And we are all stronger as women for it. I am so thankful for each and every single one of these women in my life. We have actually become stronger and grown leaps and bounds in an incredibly short amount of time. Girls that could barely do crunches are doing hundreds of sit ups with weighted balls now..... and these same girls who couldn't even walk around my block without getting winded, and I mean seriously winded, are running around my block, carrying wallballs over their heads. It is simply amazing to watch the progress every single one of these amazing women has made. Even more so... how much progress....
We are all very incredibly individually different with different backgrounds and upbringings. Some are stay at home moms, some have full time jobs and some have part time jobs. Some are Catholic, some Mormon, some cuss like sailors or truckers. Some are sweet as pies and sweet tarts. Some have very physical backgrounds with degrees in training and some have absolutely no physical fitness backgrounds at all. Every single one of us has the same goals in mind. Work hard to attain our fitness goals. It does not matter if it is to lose weight, gain muscle, get ripped, maintain our level of fitness we are at or continue on to a new level of fitness.... we are here to push each other... support each other... kick each others' butts when we can't do it alone and hold each other accountable....
The best part is... we are here for each other when our families are not. A few of us have families that are not 100% supportive of Crossfit. Or were not 100% supportive when we they began Crossfitting. I don't know if it was their fear of the unknown, their fear of their spouse becoming fitter than themselves or what.. but each of the ladies in my group that struggled with that non-supportive spouse or family member always knew they had each of us here. We created a group on facebook just for them and it seemed to work. After about one month, it seemed that every single one of my favorite ladies families' were 110% on board. They soon realized that these ladies were not quitting, I wasn't about to let that happen, and these families had better get to backing the bad ass women... because they were just getting stronger and stronger!!!! (And I couldn't be prouder!)
Before I knew it, our group had grown... we are growing and growing. We have all set some amazing goals that we will be reaching by summers end. For me... I will be turning 40 in July. That milestone will come with some photos. That is why my workouts are getting harder and my diet is really in check these days. 40 is going to look fab on me.... and I am going to be stronger than ever.
As far as my favorite ladies....... I love them all more than they could ever know. They have created a saving grace in my life that they don't even know exists. It is for selfish reasons that I created this group. To have adult interaction in my life with women that I trusted and had the same interests as me. It is because I absolutely love and adore you guys that I do it every single day... two times a day three days a week, now.... and because you are more than my workout partners.... you are truly my friends!!!!! I don't allow many people into my life or my family's life.... so you must know how much I love you ladies!!!!
(Pam...all your photos are blurry...... but I will search for more.... trust me..... I have hundreds and I want to show your progress!!!)
Gotta get this on the blog otherwise it just will get lost in the shuffle of pictures and thoughts. This season is now in full swing. Game one is in the books. The jitters are done and over with, thankfully, because that was pretty nerve-wracking for the parents, as well as those boys. They started out like beginning mighty mites.... kidding......well, not really. With a few really good tackles and a very important sack under his belt up at the PW level, Jax is ready to rock his first season.
They don't keep score, but who are we kidding, WE DO! Titans don't like to lose and now we find out that none of the GYFL teams will scrimmage us anymore. Bummer!!!!
Every practice, they are learning and every game they are putting that into play. Jax is running his tail off.... it is good to be back in the swing of it all!!!!!
Day two was a full day at sea. We happily slept in and then roamed the ship together to get the feel of where everything was. Then we let Jax and Brinkley run loose like wild children. We don't mind if they go off by themselves! Some people think we are nuts but we trust them to stick together and watch out for one another. After a few hours of checking out every deck, hitting all the buffets and ice cream machines... and our first workout on the ship.... the pool called our name!!! The weather was absolutely perfect. The sun was shining and we were ready for some R & R!
Then we checked the munchies into Camp Carnival for mine and Tommy's one and only dinner "solo" on the ship. It didn't actually help that Jax and Brinkley had "check-out" priviliges from the Club O2. Within 5 minutes of us checking them in, they were bouncing around ship again. Silly kids!!!! Thankfully they knew they had to go back at 9PM that night to be there for Justice when they would combine the two classes together.
After we had enough of the casino, we collected the kiddos and hit the ice cream machines and jacuzzi, once again............... Day two.. in the books and of course.... IT WAS AMAZING!!!!
It is absolutely never pleasant to wake up to an earthquake and tsunami in another country like we did on Friday, March 11. Especially when you have a cruise planned that is possibly going to be affected because of it!!!!! We had no idea what type waves or ramifications we would be looking at from the aftershocks on our boat....or if they would even be sailing the Carnival Spirit for our 9 day cruise. A very long phone call awaited very early that morning.
Finally, we got word that the safest place to be during our vacation, would be, on the water. Tommy and I discussed at length, ok, for like 7 seconds, that we were going on this cruise, and packed our kids up from grandma's house and headed to the San Diego Harbor.............The ship, The Carnival Spirit, was finally allowed to come into port over 2 hours late. By that time we had to tell the kids that we had sort of "lied" about our vacation plans. They were getting somewhat antsy and confused as to why were hanging out down by the docks and ports....... Brinkley is less than thrilled, initially......... then it sank in. WE WERE TAKING A 9 DAY CRUISE ON A GIGANTIC BEACH HOUSE.... A 1000+ ROOM BEACH HOUSE.......... YOU CAN'T REALLY BEAT THAT!!!!!
We had more than 4 more hours to wait. Finally, they let VIP's sit inside the hanger. Within 30 minutes of sitting down and filling out our customs paperwork, we were going through customs..... to wait for another 2 hours to board the ship. I made great use of the time by standing in the women's restroom charging the
i-touches. Very sanitary.
Finally...IT WAS TIME TO BOARD...AND THEN WAIT FOR THE SHIP TO SIT SOME MORE!!!!!!
I think the unknown of the tsunami was the worst part of all. We just did not know what was going to happen with the waves and the aftershocks of the quakes. Better safe than sorry!!!!!
Once we were safely on the ship, all checked in, after we found our balcony rooms, we started the roaming process. We bounced around. We got our first round of food! We hit the bar for Jax's first Pina Colada, Pudgie hit the ice cream bar for his all you can eat brain freeze, Brinkley hit the jackpot with the french fry bonanza and I just breathed the fresh ocean air. I think Tommy started his phone withdrawal.......Actually we both did... It was time to start this vacation!!!! Finally about 8:30 PM San Diego time, the boat backed out of port..... and our butts were in the jacuzzi when it did. That was a pretty cool scene!!!!!!! BEFORE WE KNEW IT.... DAY ONE OF BOARDING AND UNLOADING WAS DONE....... ON TO DAY TWO OF CRUISING THE SEAS!!!!!!!
SWEET HOME!
we are slowly recovering and emptying our suitcases... at least the ones that made it back to Arizona. One is actually sitting in the customs area of the port of San Diego. Brinkley is the lucky one who didn't have any clothes to fold from the trip..... I am the one who is stressing over crystal boots and heels sitting in that luggage without me. But that is how life is and they will be on their way, via Fed Ex soon enough!!!
For now, we will play catch up and enjoy a few more days off with Daddy and try to re-organize life and then get this blog completely updated. It was one crazy fun ride..... waking up on Friday morning not knowing for sure if we were even going to be able to take the trip due to the earthquake and tsunami in Japan...... what an amazing experience that was!!!
I GUESS I NO LONGER CONTROL ANY OF THESE BLOGS.. AS SUCH... MY PROFILE NOW SAYS ... I AM JAX AND I PLAY FOOTBALL. SWEET ... SUCH IS LIFE.
AND FOR NOW.... I AM VERY BUSY.. AND IT IS A GOOD BUSY. ONE THAT I AM NOT EVEN ALLOWED TO TALK ABOUT... BUT WILL ... IN HUGE DETAIL... IN EXACTLY ......
13 DAYS!!!!
PEACE OUT
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PS.
FORGIVE ME FATHER FOR I HAVE SINNED... I HAVE BEEN TELLING HUGE LIES TO MY CHILDREN FOR A LONG, LONG, LONG, TIME. IN A VERY SHORT TIME THEY WILL COME TO UNDERSTAND WHAT THOSE LIES ARE. THERE HAVE BEEN SO MANY THAT I CAN NO LONGER KEEP THEM STRAIGHT. SO MANY THAT I JUST HAVE TO AGREE THAT, THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT I DID SAY AND THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT I DID PROMISE THEM! FORGIVE ME FOR THOSE LIES...... BUT I KNOW THEY ARE GONNA BE SO WORTH IT!!!!
My kids have lists of chores that they get each weekend. They (as in Jax) think it is a fate worse than death some days. They don't get it when I explain to them that I had to do my chores every flippen Saturday from the moment I woke up, until they were done. No questions asked! PERIOD! It is starting to sink in with a few and not so much with one. Jax likes to stay in bed as long as possible, hoping that if he sleeps in, I will maybe forget to make him clean.
The best part about it is that Justice is all about helping me do everything these days. He wants Mommy to make him a list of chores with bubbles to fill in when he finishes up and he wants, "hard," chores. None of these, "baby," chores anymore. I asked him what he meant by no more, "baby," chores? Justice told me that he is sick of having to just pick up toys and shoes... he wants real chores....like doing real dishes and picking up the dog poop with the real gloves on.
Love it!!!!
But for now, we are trying to stick with cleaning off the kitchen table and..
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