MOM

For one,you're not the only one who can take over blogs.Thanks for telling me all that stuff(go to my blog and read it people).2 things 1, why'd you suddenly take over my blog,just kiddin,but seriously.2 you are the best mom ever,'cept for the fact you hacked my blog but still love ya more than cinnamon toast.

LOVE YA,
JAX

p.s. thanks for the towels
p.p.s  go to my blog,it's funny       what to do: go to blogs we tend to bother,click all about Jaxi,this'll get me some readers

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SOARIN'

THEY ARE COMING TOGETHER AS A TEAM!!!  AND WE ARE SO PROUD OF HOW FAR HE HAS COME THIS SEASON!!!   STILL UNDEFEATED AND THE TEAM TO BEAT!!!! 

GO TITANS!

THE FINAL SCORE AGAINST CASA GRANDE....28-0!!!

TITANS TEAM

2010 Fall JPW Titans!

(Thankfully this is not their actual team photo!!!!)

Goings on.....

Boy am I forever playing catch up these days. It seems like the minutes fly by and I am doing absolutely everything I can to enjoy every single second of it all.

All our spare time seems to be consumed with Jaxi's football practice and games. I never realized how much work it was going to be just by volunteering to be the team manager. I love everything I do for the boys, but I know that my other two littles are seriously getting short changed when it comes to Mommy time! We have been working on that in a big way!

We finally said good-bye to Tommy's squad A crew with a going away party. Our favorite cake baker made custom cakes for Tommy and Roberto and to be honest, I was so done with his transfer and adjustment and saying good-bye and waiting I just wanted it all to be over and done with. His process was the longest testing process anyone has ever seen and I was sick of it all. We had to put off Brinkley's birthday party because of the squad party so I was beyond over it all!!!! Good bye to the boys and girls of squad A and hello to the boys of night traffic.

So with all that said, we celebrated the big 9 for Miss Brinkley over the course of a few weeks! As usual, she bowed out of a big party with friends. We let her play hookie from school the day before her birthday and took her to see Vampire's Suck. She thought it was funny. Then we took her shopping for a new stereo system. That was her big ticket item that she chose. It was a great day with Daddy and Binky and Mommy. She stuck right in the middle of us all day. Even though it is almost our fall break from school, we still owe her a night out to P.F Changs, for her big birthday dinner. I am sure we will be able to squeeze that in pretty soon!!! I did manage to bring in donuts and juice to her class on her birthday. We had a great time dancing and boping around!!!! Happy Birthday as always Binky Noodle!!!

With Brinkley and Justice having birthday's so close, I did the unthinkable, in my eyes, and made them celebrate their days together. I took full responsibility for making sure each of them felt special for weeks before and after their big day!!!

Trying....the bright side~

That is probably the word of the week around here.

We are trying our best.
We are trying to be the best we can be.
We are trying to change our habits.
We are trying to make amends.
We are trying a different approach.
We are trying to look outside the box.
We are trying to keep our cool.
We are trying to look forward.
We are trying to forgive quicky.
We are trying to forget even quicker.
We are trying to restart fresh.
We are trying to forget we restarted once already this week.
We are trying to learn a lesson.
We are trying to take responsibility.
We are trying to own our actions.
We are trying to swallow our pride.
We are trying to look on the bright side.
We are trying to even find that bright side.
We are trying ...... and it is trying.

I took Brinkley out for a girls night last night.... with swollen eyes and a stuffed up nose.
Retail therapy was not really helpful.
I woke up this morning with swollen eyes and an even stuffier nose.

I can't remember a time when I have been pushed this far.
Tommy worried I would yell and scream and spank until it got ugly.
I am pretty sure everyone felt like that. Jax held the phone, just in case.
That was not the case at all. I cried. A lot.
He thought I was faking it and even said that to me.
That was, until he saw the tears falling down my cheeks.
That was when he realized how severe it really was.
He cried. A lot. Until he shook.
I didn't yell.
I never spanked.
I actually remained calm.
I said what needed to be said.
It was quick and painful and over.
BAM
That was when we decided to start over again.
That is what today is.
A DO OVER!
And I am so thankful for that.
Every 24 hours we get to Do it Over again!
And this morning we are doing just that.
We hugged goodbye and he agreed to work hard at everything today.
Especially his actions and his words.
Because he knows better.
And he is better than that.

And all we can do is try.

MORTIFIED....

I hate having to answer the phone to find my children's principal on the other end of the line...

only to find out that for the second time in three days...... my four year old has ended up in the principal's office.

Pretty much ended any shot at a good afternoon...............

Callings.....

I have never in my life ever used that word until we moved to Gilbert.... but not being Mormon is not what this is about.

Tonight I got more acquainted with the heads of the football league and their spouses. One woman's husband is a Gilbert motor so of course I gravitated to her and him. We chatted for a few seconds and when I told him I am a retired motor he knew who I was, instantly. Law enforcement..small world... seriously. So we chatted a while longer... and then the women from our team wanted to hear "my story." I told them I might cry but after they read my blog, that took six years to write, they were astounded that I even help with football, let alone actually workout with the boys.

After a while one mom asked about seeing the light... all the typical questions I have been asked millions of times. And then she said the phrase that runs through my head every day... hundreds and hundreds of times over and over....

"GOD HAS BIG PLANS FOR YOU, THAT IS WHY YOU ARE ALIVE TO DAY!!!"

I told her that I truly believe that too.. but dang it, I wish God would just come out and tell me what that plan is.

She looked me square in the eye and said, "This is your plan DeANNA, you are here to help your children. To help Jax become the great football player that he is already aiming to be. To teach your children and to be their mom everyday. THIS IS YOUR PLAN."

I kid you not, it was like she had just smacked me across the face. I have heard that millions of times and heck, I have said it over a million times myslef, albeit....very sarcastically. I had always known how lucky my kids and my husband are that I get to stay home and keep track of homework and shots and shoes and uniform lanyards and shoe shine kits and mechanical pencils and clean underwear. I knew that from the day I officially retired, and I knew that I didn't like it one bit.

Tonight was different. Something clicked when she asked what it felt like to be on a ventilator and what goes through your mind when you can't breathe on your own. How you learn to walk again and if I really saw the light everyone talks about. Not only did it click, it was like a fire alarm going off in my ears that would not stop ringing.

I looked out to Jax on the field, just as he dove and caught a pass. His team ran around him and were so excited ... cheering and yelling and smacking helmets. I looked at Pudgie and Brinkley playing on the jungle gym, laughing.

I would have missed this moment, and a million others if it weren't for that one bee that changed my life that day.

And I wouldn't change that for the world. This is what I am meant to be doing. Today is the day that I finally accepted it and opened my heart to listen to what God has been telling me everyday, for a lot of years. Let's hope I didn't take too long to listen!