LIFE...

Pudgie was up at the crack of dawn today. Probably even earlier. I wanted to kick Tommy to make him deal with him...but Saturday's I don't have that option....YET..... We headed downstairs and I dozed on the couch.



I woke up to screaming upstairs. Pudgie does not like for Jax and Binx to sleep when he is awake. He abruptly fixes the problem when I take my eyes off him.. or fall asleep on the couch. They all came downstairs and started playing lego star wars together. I watched them.... wondering when I took a shower last.....



It just suddenly hit me. When did my baby turn 8 years old? How did that happen? How long has it been since Brinkley had short little poofs on the sides of her head because her hair just would not grow and she had to have piggy poofs as we would call them? When did my babies get big?



And how am I 36? What the heck?



Then to top it off. While working out at the gym yesterday, one of the daycare workers tells me, after I have said Pudgie just won't talk and maybe I need to get his hearing checked, "Oh Pudgie was talking today! Pudgie was talking to everyone in here. Saying Blue and Hi and See and Go...and of course...PUZZLE" Whatever! This little stinker of mine. He has me ready to sign him up for therapy and he knows he is driving me nuts... SMART boy already I tell you! Anyway...



How does this happen? This, to me, the girl that was one-track-career-minded and never really gave marriage a second thought, and babies were just not in my scheme of things to ever come and BAM........



Here I am today in my big house, with my big horse of a dog, a cat that is pretty darn cool... three little munchkins playing till their hearts are content, while daddy sleeps. How does this happen? And where did the last 10 years of my life go?



Somedays I feel 86 and some days I think I look better than others, but I still wonder... what happened to 1999? Or 1989 for that matter. It seems like yesterday I was calling my mom to tell her I was marrying Tommy.... or even farther back... to the day I got the phone call that I was going to the police academy. Where did that time go? As one person asked me not so long ago... what has been happening with me and where have I been?



Well, I have been here and there and LIFE has been happening everyday. Some days are seriously better than others. Some days I would love to run far and fast from LIFE as I know it. I would probably only make it to Target though. That is where I buy Pudgie's night night diapers.



I can't say that this is where I thought I would be at 36. I know it is the best place for my kids and Tommy and of course, for me as well. Sometimes, just sometimes, what is good for the geese (in my family's case) just ain't so hot for the gander.... but I wouldn't trade it. I wouldn't trade this LIFE for anything... EVER!



I just wonder, how is it that this wonderful thing called LIFE just seems to keep flying by me within the blinks of 4 sets of beautiful blue eyes.