Different is..

It hit me when he was working out on Sunday. I, along with about 5 other women were watching the group working out. Then the comments about him started. One woman said, "Wow, he looks REALLY good." I just smiled. There was too long of an emphasis on really for me to try to say anything. Another said, "Oh yeah, I can see his strength in his chest muscles when he is doing pull ups, or just walking by me." I watched as she ran her fingers across her own chest for emphasis. Yeah, true, I thought.

I watched and jumped rope and watched some more. His face was sweating and flushed and he was lifting a ton of weight. All I could think of was, "Oh how I love that man."

The women were talking about Tommy. We were talking about the changes people are making to their bodies and lives since they have started working out. Somewhere along mid-conversation, I stopped talking and listening all together and just watched him.

It was almost like slow motion at times. He would finish his deadlifts and turn to walk for a second and then almost as if he knew I was watching him, he would look up at me and smile. A few times I checked to make sure he was feeling ok since he was really sick on Friday night and into Saturday, but for the most part, I just watched.

I don't just watch enough. There is always something going on. A kid to help, food to be made, stuff, stuff and more stuff.

Standing there watching him, all I could do was smile. I had those butterflies in my stomach just knowing when he was done, he was going to walk right over to me and kiss me. Most likely he would hug me, via a grab and tug me close by the butt-cheeks move, and then he would laugh into my neck. We always do this. Somehow today was different.

And different was GOOD!

Happy Birthday Baby!

It has been an amazingly crazy fun month at our house... and away from our house for that matter. Our vacation time has pretty much come to an end and Daddy will resume his normal work hours and then some today.



Today, on all days, his birthday.



It has been a wonderful birthday month for him so far. (At least I hope it has) It is not over yet.



Happy Birthday doll. I love you more today, than I ever thought humanly possible.



Thank you for being my everything.

Love, DeAnna

Where credit is due....

I have a temper. Not just a temper. A very bad, spiteful, vindictive and vicious temper. When I am pushed to an edge, I am capable of very, very bad things. This is probably a very large understatement. I am not proud of this fact but I think knowing this is half the battle for me. Luckily, I rarely need to be reeled back in by Tommy, to put the grudge-master in me, back in check.

Until last night...... so

This morning, he very tactfully did just that, for me. He just made sure he did it in a way that I would not notice until it was too late or tip me off during, as not to unleash the anger~monster at him.

I was on a mission throughout the night. Angry threats struck a bad chord in me and I was going to ruin someones life today. In a serious way. I don't take kindly to threats and for me, there was no looking back. Tommy must have had a feeling something was going south with me during his shift last night, because by the time he came home this morning, he was smoothing some serious bumps and laying a new foundation for the day. Somehow it made me a lot less angry, even less mean-spirited and a so much more forgiving, I almost didn't know who I was or how it happened.

Leave it to him to level the playing field and patch up the divets. I have an awesome husband. I love that we agree on 99.9% of everything we do, in every aspect of our lives. The fact that we are always a team, no matter what, keeps me going strong everyday. I love that he is the one and only person that can take me from an enraged stage to a place that is comforting and calming, all in a matter of 5 minutes.

Tommy is constantly teaching me to forgive those that are deserving of it and to feel compassion for those that really are not so. He teaches me something every single day about the little things in life and how short time really is.

For a long time we have lived with anger as an underlying factor in our lives. It was not a choice we made..it was just how it was with the people we were surrounded by. The past few weeks has changed our family a lot. In so many good ways. This morning was proof positive to me that letting the anger go and really forgiving someone is so refreshing and uplifiting.

I would never use the cliche, "You complete me"....because in reality, "You compliment me" is really Tommy and I. That is our entire realtionship in a nutshell. Every aspect of each of us is so complimentary that my head would just spin without him!

Thank you for this morning.