The Telling..

I promised not to lie to the kids about Tigger. I knew how I was going to lay the groundwork for my words to not sting so bad. I had cried all day long and was utterly emotionally drained.

What scares me the most out of this entire day is Brinkley knew something was wrong the minute she saw me. She asked me what happened the second she walked up to me. I told her we needed to wait for Jaxi. She begged me to tell her what happened. She started pulling at me. Then she waited.. until she could not hold back tears. Tears for an unknown reason but still big girl tears of fear. Jaxi walked out and I held my breath.

I don't know how we even managed to walk home. I think I was holding both of them up. Jaxi was sobbing uncontrollably and Binky was past the point of being able to console her. I did not expect the intense emotions from her.

Jax begged me to bring his dog back. I pretty much fell into an uncontrollable sob at that point. No Mom ever wants their children to hurt but I also want them to understand that we will get through this loss as a family and we will be fine. We, of course, have to be... because Grampie Frank was just as sad as I was. And Grampie Frank does not allow for sadness when it comes to losing your best Boxer..........and Tigger was just that... the best dog a family, or a neighborhood could have ever asked for.

TO BE CONTINUED...................